Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Insecurities

Ok, on to Day 18 of the 30 Day Challenge - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

Hmmm, this is a tough one.  I'm very much of the mindset that I am what I am and there's not much I can do to change that so I might as well embrace it.  I don't spend a lot of time dwelling on my physical imperfections and in terms of my personality, I try to be the best person I can be.  I know I'm not perfect, but I think I'm a good person and like who I am for the most part.

If I'm going to nitpick, I guess physically I know that I have kind of a funny nose.  I definitely don't spend tons of time worrying about it or anything but I know it's a little beak-ish and out there ;)  The thought of a nose job is completely terrifying, and I don't want to change what I look like (Jennifer Gray anyone??), so it's not something I've ever really considered.  It's my nose and it makes me me.

It helps to hold a cute puppy to distract from the schnoz... ;)

I also have a nervous laugh, which is obviously not something I can take a picture of (I know, I really need to do a VLOG!), but it's something I can be a little self conscious about.  I tend to say something and then do a little "hehe" after I say them.  My friend Gibson does impressions of everyone and that was his impression of me- to basically say a sentence and then do the little laugh after.  It's really not even a conscious thing, I just do it without even thinking about it!

I'm also a little self conscious about my house.  I tend to really over think having people over because:
A) I'm messy and kind of disorganized, so I usually have to do A LOT of cleaning to make my house presentable.
B)  I don't think I'm that good at decorating.  I don't really have a creative eye and 95% of the walls in my house are still white.  I am missing the house decorating gene...


Along those lines, I guess I can be insecure about what I'm wearing sometimes.  I don't feel like I'm very trendy or stylish.  You know those friends you have that always look so great and put together every time you see them and you wish you were wearing what they have on?  That's not me!  Most of the time I just try to get out of the house and not look like a frumpy mess.  I think I usually fairly put together, but I'm kind of a boring dresser.  I stick to basics and don't take many fashion risks.  Put it this way, you would lose count if you tried to figure out the number of black and gray articles of clothing I own.

Ah yes, black and gray again, with a touch of pink this time!
One that I definitely don't have a picture of that I'm insecure about is public speaking.  I avoid doing it, and wouldn't want my picture taken if I were doing it.  Public speaking makes me break into a sweaty hot mess.  It is not my cup of tea.  I should probably face my fear and get over it, but the whole thing just makes me extremely nervous. 

So there you have it.  A list of some of my insecurities!  What are yours?

9 comments:

Amanda said...

Your kitchen is amazing! I would not feel insecure about it. It doesn't look messy but a messy kitchen is a happy kitchen. :) I also think its better to stay simple in the kitchen, so I think yours is perfect. And of course your nose, laugh and clothes are perfect, too duhhh.

YUMMommy said...

Well, since we're currently living in a smaller place I too am insecure about having ppl over. I always wonder about if there's going to be enough room. I'm insecure about my legs too. My calves never seem to look good enough for me.

Ashley said...

I definitely have the nervous laugh problem too. It's really not something that I realize I do when I'm doing it, and I feel like such a silly little girl when I find out I'm doing it.. hehe. ;)

The public speaking thing isn't too bad, and I'm surprised that I don't mind it considering my nervous laugh problem.

I sometimes feel insecure about being unemployed... it can be hard to explain and then I feel sort of bad that I don't have a job. I'm excited to move though and hope to find a job when we relocate! (:

Runblondie26 said...

You've been doing some great posts in this series. Very thoughtful and easy to relate to.

My husband gives me a hard time about all the black I wear. Hey, it's slimming, everything pairs well together, and doesn't show dirt. What's not to love?

Carly said...

I have a friend who I see just about every day who always looks good and I wish I had her clothes (and her body) to pull it off!

Joanna said...

I am also missing the decorating gene, and that is why we use a decorator :)

Brittany @ A Healthy Slice of Life said...

Too funny- we're actually a lot alike! Now that you mention it, I definitely have a nervous laugh, too. I never thought about it before, but I always say a sentence, then laugh afterwards- strange!!

Also, I totally feel you on the decorating gene. I don't have it. At all. And when it comes to dressing myself, jeans and t-shirt please. And black and white go with everything, so why fight it?

Love this 30 day challenge thing :)

Phorrest said...

Hey there! I saw on facebook that you had a blog & have started reading it :o). So, here I am saying hi! I'm really enjoying your blog! Although I'm going backwards, haha, and started at the most recent entry & am going back to the older ones slowly...

Allison @ Happy Tales said...

OMG is that your kitchen?! it is GORGEOUS! I'm pretty insecure about my job-situation, I feel like I have *so* much potential that is not being tapped into. I am looking forward to hearing back from a school program I applied to this week so I can finally start looking for fulltime work!

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